I haven’t had a chance to look back at all of my posts from this blog, but I am fairly confident that I didn’t factor in every aspect of life being involved when dedicating myself to losing weight. I might’ve associated other areas, but I had compartmentalized a lot of things.
When I disappeared from blogging, it was mainly because my career took a lot of focus. This isn’t to say that I wasn’t thinking about weight loss. Weight loss has been on my mind every day since roughly 2004. Waking up at 630AM and working until 7PM some nights simply left me with little desire to blog. Heck, it left me with little desire to do a lot of things that required effort. Then I bounced around a few jobs, but my focus wasn’t on anything except work, and improving that lot in life.
Around April of this year I found myself in a fast paced role that continues today. My days can be 10 hours long and really draining, but truthfully I enjoy it. Enjoying my current job has given me the ability to look at other areas of my life a bit more closely. Instead of worrying about the next paycheck or if I even liked what I was doing, I’ve been energized to look at how I can make myself happier in other areas.
About two months ago I took stock in myself, and began looking at what makes me happy. What makes me feel good? The first thing I noticed is maintaining the same attitude all day is key. Choosing to be cognizant of everything and how I react to things has been huge. It takes some effort to stay on the happy side of life. It’s much easier to complain, to see the negative in something, and to harp on the bad stuff that crops up every day.
I’m a happy go lucky guy, but I noticed I had slipped a bit with the energy level of that good feeling. So I’ve been working on changing it. Just because something annoying has interrupted my day, why should that derail anything?
So, I’m looking to bring that to my weight loss as well. I was easily derailed when I tried to be so, so, so rigid in my diet and exercise regiment. When I slipped off, I’d essentially quit. I found myself ignoring the whole blogging idea because I didn’t want to fake it if I wasn’t making it.
Over the last few months I’ve thought about my situation with food, and I’ve begun to make changes mentally. Asking if I really need the extra snacks, or if the fast food joint is really my best option. On top of that, I think about the prospect of having kids, and how I don’t want to be a fat dad. A fat dad would be a dead dad soon enough. I’m not going to be a father for a while, but now seems to be the time to make the changes.
My weight is on the sidebar. It’s about 20 pounds less than my highest weight. My goal is to dabble at 199 for at least a few days. I see myself comfortably at 220, but man, 199 would be amazing. I know saying 220 is defeatist, but I’ve been talking this up for so long, it seems like a pipedream. It’s just a matter of changing the course.
So that’s where I’m at. I’m not sure if I’ll blog daily or weekly, but I’ll pick one sooner than later. I’ll be using Twitter regularly for random thoughts and discussions.
Thanks for reading.